As a kid I had trouble with reading comprehension. In fact, my grade school teacher recommended that my parents enroll me in private classes away from the regular curriculum in order fix my poor reading comprehension skills. Did it help? I don’t think it did.
As an adult, I believe I still have the same problem. But these days, it’s much easier put a name to the problem – dyslexia. No, I haven’t been formerly diagnosed, but after doing a little poking around, I realized that I suffer from all symptoms: Reading problems? Check. Issues solving complex math problems? Check. …the list goes on and on.
So you are probably wondering how I finished high school and college, and also how I was able to get to where I am at now. It’s a lengthy explanation, but hopefully you will find some interest in my story. It’s a story that my own parents and siblings don’t even know about – and they probably never realized it.
People find it hard to believe that I never finished reading a book. It’s true – I have never read a book. Why not? Well, as much as I tried, my eyes would read the words, but my brain struggled to process any meaning to them. I discovered this early in high school but never found a remedy. So how did I pass my English and Math classes? If you went to high school with me, you would remember that I didn’t actually pass. I failed English as a junior and didn’t take any upper-level math classes until college. I only, later, passed English because I learned to interact with my teachers in a way that made them feel like I was their very own child. Yes, it was very manipulative, but it worked. Rather than giving me an F, they would end up giving me a C-. I had my ways of making them feel like they were going to ruin a kid’s life just because of a failing grade.
People forget how early I was introduced to computers, the internet, and many resources outside of typical textbooks. The teachers knew kids had access to Cliff’s Notes – they could spot someone using these notes a mile away. But the teachers did not have access to the same online resources that I had. I was downloading papers from others online as early as 1987. I was way ahead of the game that the teachers and their students were playing. A few, simple changes to a downloaded paper, and voila!
How did I pass all these math classes? A Computer Science degree is practically a Mathematics degree! Well, I manipulated the system here too. As soon as I knew I had a problem with the class, I didn’t hesitate to withdraw. How many “Ws” did I have before graduating? Twelve. Yes, twelve. I never failed a class. I kept taking the classes, withdrew if necessary, and signed up the following quarter until I found a professor who was “willing” to pass me!
So this is my Kobayashi Maru. People can arrive to different conclusions as to why I didn’t do so well in school. They could say I was lazy, not dedicated, bored, etc. The reality is that I suffer from this disability. I don’t feel sorry for myself, nor does anyone else have to feel sorry for me…because I understand the problem. I never felt bad about it. I just play with the cards I am dealt.
Sounds extreme, aye? None of this is an exaggeration. So why do I bring this all up? It’s nothing big, but I decided to embark on something new – reading books…but not really…I want to read so many books, but I stay reserved because I know my problem and limitations. I have turned to audiobooks to satisfy my reading desires. I toyed around with the thought of “reading” audiobooks in the past, but they used to only be available via cassette and CD. These types of media are cumbersome and also very expensive! A single audiobook on CD used to cost over $50! With all of this newer technology, equipment, and availability, I am able to enjoy an audiobook for the same price as the paperback!
I just thought it was a good opportunity to share a story about me that nobody really knew!
My first audiobook will be Anthony Bourdain’s Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly. I’ve always enjoyed Tony Bourdain’s cynical look at life. I also enjoy food and knowing everything that happens behind the scenes in restaurants. This is the perfect “first” book for me.
Other books on my list to read:
Sarah Palin’s Going Rogue: An American Life
David Cullen’s Columbine
Bill Clinton’s My Life
This should keep busy for the next month. Any recommendations are welcome.
Whew, this has to be on of my longest posts!
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